Coffee Date

Let’s have a quick coffee date, shall we?? And yes, I’ve still been drinking my 1 (sometimes 2!) cups of coffee per day throughout my pregnancy. I have added back in creamer recently when I was drinking my coffee black for a long time. There is just something I absolutely love about that cup of coffee in the morning with delicious half-and-half cream in it turning it that beautiful rich caramel colour. Hmmmm.

If we were having coffee today I would definitely tell you about the insane snowfall we had yesterday. It broke records from 1918. We got over 20 cm of thick, wet, heavy snow. I was very happy that Eric was on day’s off as he spent over an hour shovelling our driveway, front porch and back deck!

You may recall that last year it snowed almost this much on October 1, so I will just be grateful for the extra 24 days of fall we had this year 🙂

If we were having coffee today I would tell you that I only have 4 working days left until I’m on maternity leave! I could actually probably go now, I’m really just cleaning up files and doing a few last little bits of passing stuff off. My replacement has been with me for 4 weeks now because I wanted to make sure we had enough time together in case I had to go off early and she’s handling most of the day-to-day stuff on her own now. However, it’s kind of nice to have a quieter and slower transition from work because the last two times I’ve moved on from jobs it’s been a bit frantic so I will just enjoy the next 4 days at a leisurely pace.

If we were having coffee today I might mention that I started reading the new Dan Brown book yesterday. Eric is a big Dan Brown fan so went and bought it and I thought I might as well pick it up. So far I’m really enjoying it and I think it will be one of those guilty pleasure type reads for me. I also just finished reading All the Ugly and Wonderful Things yesterday morning which was a very disturbing, but very well written, book.

If we were having coffee today I would tell you that this may be mine and Eric’s last weekend off together just the two of us. It seems so strange to say that! Because of Eric’s work schedule, his next weekend off is November 18/19, which is 5 days after our due date. So yes theoretically that could be our last weekend off together too, but we are going into this weekend kind of expecting this to be it. We don’t really have too many plans, we have our last prenatal class on Saturday morning and we are going to get pictures hung in the baby’s room and really just try to soak up our time together just the two of us. Probably will go out for breakfast or dinner or to a movie or something but I’m not entirely sure yet. With his crazy work schedule over the last year it’s honestly just so nice for us both to be at home at the same time even if we aren’t ‘hanging out’ so I will just enjoy that.

If we were having coffee today I might tell you I got a new iPhone last week. We were able to get a great deal through an employee purchase plan at our company and I wanted to take advantage of it before going on maternity leave so got an iPhone 8 Plus. It’s weird getting used to having such a big phone but it’s also so nice to have a new phone as my old one was getting very slow.

And to wrap up the post, here is a random photo of the sunset from last night, so pretty 🙂

If we were having coffee today, what would you tell me? 

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TGIF – Weekend Edition!

I didn’t take enough photos (or do enough fun things) for a full-fledged weekend recap, so here is a weekend recap TGIF style!

The high of my weekend was the beautiful weather we are having up here! We have woken up to little skiffs of snow twice now (see above picture from last Thursday morning), but it’s always melted by the end of the day and it’s still getting up to around 10 C (50 F) during the day with the sun shining. Considering last year we had full fledged winter by this time I will not complain even a little bit and am continuing to enjoy this as long as it lasts.

I also had a prenatal massage on Saturday, and while it was quite painful and uncomfortable at the time it really helped with some of the aches and pains I’ve been having in my legs and back so the after effects of that could be considered a high of the weekend 🙂

The low of my weekend was waking up with a sore throat yesterday morning. Eric was quite sick last week and had to take a day off work and I was scared I’d caught it. But spending all of Sunday morning on the couch watching Netflix / reading / dozing seemed to have nipped it in the bud. Fingers crossed!

A podcast episode I loved was the Fall Extravaganza episode on The Girl Next Door. It was ah-ma-zing. I have binge listened to the episodes since the beginning over the last 4 months and I’m so sad to officially be all caught up now. However, this may have been my favourite episode yet. I was actually laughing out loud while listening to it on a walk with Chloe. I’m sure people thought I was a bit crazy as I walked along with a giant smile on my face and laughing out loud. The part where Kelsey is ordering their drinks at Starbucks is the best.

And because I was inspired by that episode, here is a photo of my fall decor on our front porch! 

For my workouts, I completed a yoga class on Saturday morning, a 20-minute walk Saturday afternoon and another 20-minute walk on Sunday. Definitely slowing down a lot in these last few weeks. It was a vinyasa flow yoga class, but I am definitely not flowing anymore! My yoga practice includes blocks, knees down always and no more downward dog right now BUT it still feels great to move my body and stretch.

The best money I spent was on nothing. I only spent money on boring adult things this weekend like groceries and a mechanic bill for my car going into the shop. I guess if I had to pick something it would be the coffee I bought after yoga on Saturday morning.

My plans this week include my last full work week! My last day of work is October 31, so I still have 2 days next week, but this is my last full 5-day work week before maternity leave. It definitely feels very surreal. I have been working full-time since the spring of 2009, so it seems weird to have a long stretch of no structured work schedule ahead of me. It also feels a bit strange to be going on leave not knowing for sure when this baby is going to come. I could have 1 week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks or even (god forbid) almost 4 weeks off work before we have a baby!

Anyways, it is also Eric’s week off from work so in the evenings and on the weekend we are going to put the finishing touches on the baby’s room, go to our last prenatal class, install our car seat and just do a bunch of baby prep! I am 37 weeks today, so baby could literally come anytime now.

What was the best money you spent on the weekend? What was the high of your weekend? 

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Reflections on pregnancy as we near the end

You can feel more than one emotion all at once and right now I feel uncomfortable and grateful at the same time. I feel ready for pregnancy to be over and not ready for it to end all at once. I feel so unbelievably lucky to have had this incredible experience of growing a human in my body and ready to no longer have a human in my body all at the same time.

For almost two years we tried to get pregnant. We talked to doctors and specialists all over Western Canada. I connected with other women battling infertility on social media. I injected hormones into my body. For almost two years every time I saw a pregnant woman out and about or a pregnancy announcement on social media I felt like I’d been stabbed in the gut with a knife. I like having control over my body so when I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF) in January of 2016, it was devastating. I was basically being told my body had this thing wrong with it and there was nothing I could do about it.

Due to that experience, the underlying emotion throughout this entire pregnancy has been gratefulness. When I couldn’t stop puking over the Easter weekend I still felt grateful. When I felt nauseous all day, every day for 6 weeks straight I was grateful. When my back would ache at the end of every single day, I was grateful. Right now, when it hurts to walk because of pelvic pain and I sometimes cry out in the night from the pain of rolling over or getting out of bed, I am grateful. So grateful. And I wouldn’t trade what I’m going through for anything. I am SO LUCKY to be pregnant right now and I will never ever forget that or let the negativity / bad side outweigh the good.

At the same time, being pregnant kind of sucks and most pregnant people will tell you that. Trust me, this was not something I wanted to hear when I was dealing with infertility so if you don’t want to hear this right now – or reading this makes you angry – I give you full permission to stop reading this post now. But just because I dealt with infertility, struggled to get pregnant and this baby in my belly is a little 1% miracle baby, doesn’t make the experience any less crappy and I can and am holding both emotions at once.

I definitely didn’t realize how uncomfortable I would be, how much I would hate the way my body looks in most photos (or that it would take 30 tries to get a bump photo I liked!) or how hormonal / emotional I would feel. Also, in general you just don’t ‘feel’ good or like yourself anymore, and that’s hard, especially for 40 weeks. I also really miss running.

There are a few things I truly will miss about being pregnant though, and here they are…

Feeling the baby move

I LOVE when the baby moves. Right from that first tiny flutter I felt at 18 weeks up to the big belly movements I feel now, every single movement has been amazing. I’ve been lucky to not really have any painful kick and I’ve never thought his/her kicks were annoying. They are just a lovely miraculous little feeling of a small babe in my belly. The best.

Eric bonding with my belly

I mean obviously seeing him bond / love on a baby is going to be 100% better but I’ve loved watching him love on his little babe before it’s even born. He talks to him/her, kisses him/her goodbye every day and also gets so much joy out of watching/feeling the movements. Again, this is something that just overwhelms my heart with gratefulness because we waited for it for so long and I didn’t know if it would ever be our turn.

Pregnant workouts during the second trimester

I already miss this since I’m now well beyond the second trimester, but I loved working out during that time period when my belly wasn’t too big and I wasn’t too uncomfortable yet. I felt totally bad ass for doing so many Fitness Blender HIIT and strength workouts and rocking my 10,000 steps a day for 3 months in a row while pregnant. It felt really really good to move my body and have such an active pregnancy. I am still moving regularly now at 36 weeks but that looks like yoga with A LOT of modifications, very short walks, and slow swims once a week. I’m still teaching a boot camp class 2x per week but not actively participating in the full class anymore. I mostly stick to things like lunges, squats and upper body strength moves.

Anticipating whether the baby is a ‘he’ or a ‘she’

I am SO glad we didn’t find out the sex of Baby H. It has made these last few weeks so much more fun! It’s fun to imagine having both a son AND a daughter. It’s fun to brainstorm names for both. I am feeling really excited to find out, but also not ‘dying to know’ yet either if that makes sense. I will know when we know. I cannot wait to have Eric be the one to announce it to me in the delivery room though 🙂 <3 If we are ever lucky enough to get pregnant again I would consider finding out the sex of the baby, just to experience both sides of the coin. But I’m definitely very glad we did not find out for this first babe.

Well, that turned into a bit of a monster post 🙂 So I will leave it at that!

If you are pregnant or have been pregnant before what did you like about it and will miss and what was your least favourite thing about it?

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