Mind and Body After Baby: 3 months postpartum

I totally meant to do a 1 month postpartum update but then completely dropped the ball on that. Time really does go so quickly right now.

Body Update

I’ve lost about 36 pounds of the 43 pounds I gained while pregnant, but I’ve pretty much stalled out there and the last 7 pounds aren’t coming off so easily. I’ve started tracking my food in MyFitnessPal to see if paying closer attention to what I eat will help, but then I went and made cookies last week and have been enjoying a few each day so that’s not helping lol. Also, when I got pregnant I was about 15 pounds above my “happy” weight. I may never get back to that happy weight, and that’s completely OK, but I would definitely like to lose an additional 10 – 15 pounds from where I am right now.

Even though I overall feel pretty darn good in my body I still don’t love what I look like in photos, I just feel like my face looks so round. Again, maybe that will be my new post baby reality. But I’m definitely getting happier and happier with what I see when I look in the mirror. I was carrying a BIG baby and my stomach got really stretched out so there is definitely quite a bit of excess skin on my stomach still and even 3 months later I still have a little pooch, but it’s shrinking – especially as I’ve started working out again.

Here are some comparison photos.

My last belly picture taken at 41 weeks (taken 4 days before Olivia was finally born)

5 days postpartum:

~ 1 month postpartum (wow did that shirt ever photograph weird!):

3 months postpartum:

On a different note, I’ve been seeing a physiotherapist who specializes in pelvic floor health regularly to try and get my pelvic floor back to normal and also to assess my diastasis recti. I did have a bit of ab separation above my belly button but that was it and I’ve been doing some physiotherapy exercises to help rectify that and also help with some of the pelvis pain I was feeling regularly after labour and delivery. It has been a huge help and I really recommend every pregnant person see one after delivery, regardless of whether you have a c-section or deliver vaginally! I’ve also just started listening to the To Birth and Beyond podcast which is all about prenatal and postpartum health and one of the hosts is a physiotherapist.

I started typing this post up awhile ago (story of my life these days) and then this past Tuesday night I went to a spin class at the gym. It was my first spin class in a long time and I worked super hard and really pushed myself and was a sweaty mess at the end. It felt really, really good and was a reminder to me how – for me – exercise is ALL about my mental health. I am not jumping back into working out to get my “pre baby body” back (what even is that? How can anyone expect to have the same body as before after what our bodies go through during pregnancy and delivery). but rather I am jumping back into exercise because it’s one of the things that makes me feel like me. And feeling like at least a partial version of yourself some of the time is so important in the postpartum journey.

Mind Update 

I would like to think my mind space is pretty good and pretty much back to normal now, however I also thought that during the first month postpartum and now looking back on that I was soooo fuzzy and out of it and barely remember what was going on during that time, sooo…. maybe at 6 months postpartum I will also look back on this time and think about how fuzzy it is! I definitely do not feel nearly as hormonal or emotional as I did in the first 4 weeks, so that is nice.

On average I get about 6 – 6.5 hours of sleep per night, which certainly isn’t terrible for having a baby but is also low compared to the 8 I used to get. Some nights I only get 4 – 5 and some nights I’m lucky enough to get 7. I actually feel like I’ve been functioning fairly well on such little sleep, however that could change as I get further into it. It has only been 3.5 months after all!

I’ve had a bit of postpartum anxiety here and there, which I think is pretty normal. I’ve had some major worries about Olivia’s weight gain as she was a very big baby and has now only gained about 3.5 lbs in the past almost 4 months. She’s still a normal size for her current age, but since she was so large at birth that gave me some serious anxiety. That said, I try really hard to just reassure myself that everything is fine, if she was hungry all the time or underweight I would know. I would say that is one thing that is difficult about exclusively breastfeeding, you just never really know how much your baby is getting and have to trust they are getting enough.

Actually, on the exclusively breastfeeding note, that is one thing that has been difficult. I knew breastfeeding would be hard, but I thought it would get easier after the first 8 weeks. It actually got harder for me around 10-12 weeks. That was when Olivia’s eating habits really shifted from newborn cluster feeding to more snacking and when I got mastitis. I might do a completely separate post on breastfeeding as it still is a struggle some days, but at the same time I’m SO grateful we have been able to do it as it was really important to me when pregnant and it’s allowed for some really special bonding moments that I love. But it’s also super hard, and the hard part can’t be discounted.

I feel like this post was a bit rambly, but that’s where I’m at 3 months postpartum. Here are some of the ‘milestones’ I hit – and plan to be hitting – in my postpartum body journey.

  • Began working out again at 6 weeks postpartum
  • Began running again at 12 weeks postpartum – though my ‘running’ is very very much still a run/walk. I’m yet to run more than about 5 minutes consecutively.
  • Returned to yoga at 7 weeks postpartum
  • Will be returning to teaching fitness classes at 5 months postpartum
  • Will be participating in Yoga Teacher Training at 9 months postpartum – yup, I’m doing my YTT this year! Just put my deposit down! More on this later 🙂

I am still modifying a lot in everything I do. I just really listen to my body. I am also doing some core exercises as recommended by my physiotherapist as my core strength is really lacking.

Congratulations if you made it to the end of this very long and rambly post 🙂

If you have kids, what did your mind & body look like postpartum?

Any tips or thoughts for me?


Looking Back

I’ve often shared Looking Forward posts on this blog, but I thought that I would do a looking back post today because this first week of March has been significant for us over the last few years…

Three Years Ago 

Life was good and at the time I would have described it as “perfect”. We were both working jobs we enjoyed a lot, even though admittedly we did not have a lot of extra money. We spent our weekends going to the gym together, going for brunch or going for hikes and trail runs and we spent all of our disposable income on traveling. We were gearing up to head to Maui in a month and after three years of being married we were finally ready to start trying for a family!

Two Years Ago 

After a tumultuous year that included Eric being laid off from his job twice and our infertility diagnosis we made the huge, huge, HUGE decision to rent out our house, for me to quit my job and for us to move back to our hometown for new career opportunities. Still to this day the hardest decision we’ve ever made. And while I will never regret this decision because of what came afterwards, I will always miss aspects of our life down there. Especially the amazing friends we had.

One Year Ago 

At this time a year ago we had just found out we were 4 weeks pregnant. We also took possession of our house that week. It was the start of a very anxious filled several weeks as we’d waited so long for this pregnancy and early pregnancy is a scary time as you know the chances of something going wrong or losing the baby are very high. I was also insanely sick.


I’m 4 months into my 1 year maternity leave with our amazing, adorable, hilarious, fun baby girl. She absolutely lights up our life. Eric just started a new job where he will only work 8 hour shifts 5 days per week instead of the 12 hour shifts, 14 days straight he has been working for almost two years. This new schedule has just started this week, but we’re already so excited for the extra time we will have together as a family and I am excited that he will be able to participate so much more fully in parenting even on the days he is working.


There have been many trials and tribulations for us over the last three years, and life certainly isn’t perfect. But it’s also not about having a perfect life anyways. The messy parts can lead to something beautiful, they did for us. And I wouldn’t change the journey for anything!

What were you doing three years ago, two years ago and one year ago at this time?

What are you doing today?

How does your life look different? 

PS: Wishing my brother a very happy 25th birthday today! Also send him all your good thoughts today as he heads out on his Appalachian Trail hike – today is day 1 of his hike!


Podcasts, workouts, books and looks of February!


I started listening to Stranglers in February to fulfill my true crime podcast need. Also still listening to a ton of mom podcasts and one of my favourite podcast episodes from February was the Longest Shortest Time episode Choose Your Own Mom-Venture.


Lots of walks at the track, quite a few Fitness Blender workouts, a few yoga classes and a few at home yoga practices and… dun dun dunnnnn…. a couple of RUNS! Yup, I’m officially running again. It’s really more of a run/walk at this point with almost equal amounts walking to running, but it definitely feels good to be running again. I’m signed up for a half-marathon at the end of September but that is still lots of time to train so for now I’m just trying to do 2 run/walks per week and 3 other walks per week.


I read 4 books in February, down from 6 in January, but it was a shorter month so I’ll blame that.

Glory Over Everything was definitely my favourite book of the month. If you haven’t read The Kitchen House read it first. This author is really talented though and I’ve found both of her books to be huge page turners. Heat & Light was just OK, it had an interesting subject matter (fracking) but a bit too much going on for my liking. Be Frank With Me was cute and quirky. AWOL on the Appalachian Trail was interesting if you are interested in the Appalachian Trail, I wanted to learn more about it as my brother is planning to hike it (he actually starts tomorrow!)

Olivia’s Looks

Stephany made the great suggestion to feature Olivia’s looks instead of mine in this section of my monthly recap. I am way more into dressing her these days anyways 😉

Loving this little black & white polka dot sleeper my aunt got her! 

Such an adorable sleeper and headband set from our friend Jess and her adorable daughter Brooklyn! My grandma made those cute little mary jane style slippers. 

Is there anything cuter than a baby in jeggings??? Alllll the heart eyes. Also loving that adorable pink beanie hat my grandma made her. And the kerchiefs are necessary these days as she’s a drooling little machine! 

What were your podcasts, books, workouts and looks of February??