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Happy Friday! I can’t believe I completely blanked with my post on Wednesday and forgot to say Happy Valentine’s Day. I hope everyone had a great V-day 🙂 Eric was super sweet and got me flowers and also the fixings for an amazing breakfast, since he’s on night shift right now having breakfast together is what we do instead of dinner.

Time to check in with a Currently post!

Reading Glory Over Everything: Beyond the Kitchen House. This is the sequel/follow-up to The Kitchen House, which was one of my very favourite books that I read last year. I was excited when it went on sale on kindle a few days ago.

Loving bubble baths. Hands down my favourite way to relax after a long day. They are made 1,000x better when I put my laptop on the toilet to watch my favourite show and have a glass of wine. Sadly no wine for a few more days as I finish up this round of antibiotics.

Feeling better now that we are on a bit of a schedule. For almost a week now Olivia has been consistently sleeping from 8pm – 8am with 2-3 wake ups to eat in that 12 hour period. Then during the day she goes down for a nap every 1.5 hours and her naps last anywhere from 45 minutes to 2 hours. It’s not an exact schedule yet, but it’s better than the completely sporadic schedule we were on before and it’s been nice for this Type A personality!

Thinking about how freaking lucky I am to get a 12 month maternity leave with my girl. Olivia is 12 weeks today and I know that if I was in the US, I would either already be back at work or going back to work soon. I literally cannot even imagine going back to work right now, not only would it be so hard to leave her, I’m so tired and my brain is mush so working does not sound fun with the broken nights of sleep I get. I am so lucky I get this special extended time with her.

Anticipating visiting BFF Jen and her kiddos in mid-March! Olivia and I are flying down for 3 days of fun. I am also anticipating (and let’s be real – a bit nervous about) flying with her all by myself and crossing my fingers it goes well!

Watching This is Us. I watched Season 1 as it came out last year and I just bought Season 2 on iTunes. I am loving Season 2 so much more than Season 1, it is such a great show with awesome characters and at least every second episode makes me cry.  

Working on getting my strength and endurance back. My core strength is basically non-existent. I just had a great session with a physiotherapist specializing in pelvic health and I really need to work on regaining some of my core strength so will be working on that through some exercises she gave me and regular yoga over the next couple of weeks. I am also working on building an at-home yoga practice. I’ve always loved going to yoga at the studio but that’s just not possible very often these days so I need to practice at home right now. I did this power flow from Peanut Butter Runner yesterday and it was super tough, it got me sweating in only 30 minutes!

Grateful for a healthy family.

Listening to podcasts still. I did just start listening to a new true crime podcast called Stranglers because I was getting a little tired of all the mom podcasts.

Wishing that Eric had a job with more traditional hours. We miss him so much when he’s gone for so many hours of the day and especially when he’s on night shift.

What are you loving, anticipating and grateful for today? 


Last weekend just the two of us

Happy November! As of today I am officially on maternity leave, since yesterday was my last day of work. I’m currently 38 weeks + 3 days pregnant with a due date of November 13. I have lots of plans for the next almost 2 weeks, but also wouldn’t be disappointed if baby decided to make an early appearance. I guess time will tell 🙂

In the meantime, Eric is back to work for 14 days and goes on days off again on our due date. So it’s entirely possible last weekend was our LAST WEEKEND off together with no babe! Of course I have to recap it, even though we really didn’t do anything too interesting.

Thursday… I did have to work on Friday, however our weekend kind of started on Thursday night as at 6:10pm we made the last minute decision to head to the 6:45pm movie. We saw American Made and it was pretty good. Maybe our last movie in the theatre for awhile!

Friday… I worked most of the day but left early for a chiropractor appointment. Friday night we got vietnamese takeout and my mom and brother came over for a couple of games of Settlers of Catan. We also played some Harry Potter Trivial Pursuit at the end of the night. It was a lot of fun!!


Saturday… we slept in until about 8:30am and then made some breakfast and coffee before heading to our last prenatal class at 10am. Due to Eric’s work schedule we ended up doing private prenatal classes, which were two 2-hour sessions 3 weeks apart. I’m really glad we did them as we learned a lot about the different stages of labour, different kinds of pain medications and different kinds of induction. It’s all information we could have found online, however it was great to have it presented to us and have someone there to discuss it with. Our instructor was also able to check our carseat and make sure it was installed properly.

I can’t really remember what we did the rest of Saturday honestly… I think we just kind of relaxed around the house and watched Stranger Things. Saturday night we made delicious homemade pizza!

Sunday… was another sleep-in day and then lazing around the house all morning. Eric played his game and I read my book. Around 11 we finally got ourselves together and headed out for a walk. We were hoping to do a loop on the local trail system, but it was full of snow and ice from our big snow storm last week so our walk was cut short. It was still a beautiful morning though.

Sunday afternoon I went to my little cousins birthday party and then over to my mom’s house to make my Halloween costume…

It was a total hit at work yesterday, I even won best female costume 🙂

Sunday evening, Eric made us homemade pho for dinner which was delicious! We watched more Stranger Things and went to bed early. I managed to watch all of Season 1 (Eric had already watched it) and Season 2 of Stranger Things from last Wednesday to Monday, so clearly watching that show dominated a lot of our time recently!

And that sums up our potentially last weekend together just the two of us. Pretty laid back and low key, which was honestly perfect. We just hung around the house and relaxed lot and ate yummy food. It was really nice. I am super tired these days and Eric is also pretty tired on his days off from his intense work schedule, so we will take the lower key days!

How was your weekend? What did you get up to? 


Reflections on pregnancy as we near the end

You can feel more than one emotion all at once and right now I feel uncomfortable and grateful at the same time. I feel ready for pregnancy to be over and not ready for it to end all at once. I feel so unbelievably lucky to have had this incredible experience of growing a human in my body and ready to no longer have a human in my body all at the same time.

For almost two years we tried to get pregnant. We talked to doctors and specialists all over Western Canada. I connected with other women battling infertility on social media. I injected hormones into my body. For almost two years every time I saw a pregnant woman out and about or a pregnancy announcement on social media I felt like I’d been stabbed in the gut with a knife. I like having control over my body so when I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF) in January of 2016, it was devastating. I was basically being told my body had this thing wrong with it and there was nothing I could do about it.

Due to that experience, the underlying emotion throughout this entire pregnancy has been gratefulness. When I couldn’t stop puking over the Easter weekend I still felt grateful. When I felt nauseous all day, every day for 6 weeks straight I was grateful. When my back would ache at the end of every single day, I was grateful. Right now, when it hurts to walk because of pelvic pain and I sometimes cry out in the night from the pain of rolling over or getting out of bed, I am grateful. So grateful. And I wouldn’t trade what I’m going through for anything. I am SO LUCKY to be pregnant right now and I will never ever forget that or let the negativity / bad side outweigh the good.

At the same time, being pregnant kind of sucks and most pregnant people will tell you that. Trust me, this was not something I wanted to hear when I was dealing with infertility so if you don’t want to hear this right now – or reading this makes you angry – I give you full permission to stop reading this post now. But just because I dealt with infertility, struggled to get pregnant and this baby in my belly is a little 1% miracle baby, doesn’t make the experience any less crappy and I can and am holding both emotions at once.

I definitely didn’t realize how uncomfortable I would be, how much I would hate the way my body looks in most photos (or that it would take 30 tries to get a bump photo I liked!) or how hormonal / emotional I would feel. Also, in general you just don’t ‘feel’ good or like yourself anymore, and that’s hard, especially for 40 weeks. I also really miss running.

There are a few things I truly will miss about being pregnant though, and here they are…

Feeling the baby move

I LOVE when the baby moves. Right from that first tiny flutter I felt at 18 weeks up to the big belly movements I feel now, every single movement has been amazing. I’ve been lucky to not really have any painful kick and I’ve never thought his/her kicks were annoying. They are just a lovely miraculous little feeling of a small babe in my belly. The best.

Eric bonding with my belly

I mean obviously seeing him bond / love on a baby is going to be 100% better but I’ve loved watching him love on his little babe before it’s even born. He talks to him/her, kisses him/her goodbye every day and also gets so much joy out of watching/feeling the movements. Again, this is something that just overwhelms my heart with gratefulness because we waited for it for so long and I didn’t know if it would ever be our turn.

Pregnant workouts during the second trimester

I already miss this since I’m now well beyond the second trimester, but I loved working out during that time period when my belly wasn’t too big and I wasn’t too uncomfortable yet. I felt totally bad ass for doing so many Fitness Blender HIIT and strength workouts and rocking my 10,000 steps a day for 3 months in a row while pregnant. It felt really really good to move my body and have such an active pregnancy. I am still moving regularly now at 36 weeks but that looks like yoga with A LOT of modifications, very short walks, and slow swims once a week. I’m still teaching a boot camp class 2x per week but not actively participating in the full class anymore. I mostly stick to things like lunges, squats and upper body strength moves.

Anticipating whether the baby is a ‘he’ or a ‘she’

I am SO glad we didn’t find out the sex of Baby H. It has made these last few weeks so much more fun! It’s fun to imagine having both a son AND a daughter. It’s fun to brainstorm names for both. I am feeling really excited to find out, but also not ‘dying to know’ yet either if that makes sense. I will know when we know. I cannot wait to have Eric be the one to announce it to me in the delivery room though 🙂 <3 If we are ever lucky enough to get pregnant again I would consider finding out the sex of the baby, just to experience both sides of the coin. But I’m definitely very glad we did not find out for this first babe.

Well, that turned into a bit of a monster post 🙂 So I will leave it at that!

If you are pregnant or have been pregnant before what did you like about it and will miss and what was your least favourite thing about it?