Last weekend just the two of us

Happy November! As of today I am officially on maternity leave, since yesterday was my last day of work. I’m currently 38 weeks + 3 days pregnant with a due date of November 13. I have lots of plans for the next almost 2 weeks, but also wouldn’t be disappointed if baby decided to make an early appearance. I guess time will tell 🙂

In the meantime, Eric is back to work for 14 days and goes on days off again on our due date. So it’s entirely possible last weekend was our LAST WEEKEND off together with no babe! Of course I have to recap it, even though we really didn’t do anything too interesting.

Thursday… I did have to work on Friday, however our weekend kind of started on Thursday night as at 6:10pm we made the last minute decision to head to the 6:45pm movie. We saw American Made and it was pretty good. Maybe our last movie in the theatre for awhile!

Friday… I worked most of the day but left early for a chiropractor appointment. Friday night we got vietnamese takeout and my mom and brother came over for a couple of games of Settlers of Catan. We also played some Harry Potter Trivial Pursuit at the end of the night. It was a lot of fun!!

 

Saturday… we slept in until about 8:30am and then made some breakfast and coffee before heading to our last prenatal class at 10am. Due to Eric’s work schedule we ended up doing private prenatal classes, which were two 2-hour sessions 3 weeks apart. I’m really glad we did them as we learned a lot about the different stages of labour, different kinds of pain medications and different kinds of induction. It’s all information we could have found online, however it was great to have it presented to us and have someone there to discuss it with. Our instructor was also able to check our carseat and make sure it was installed properly.

I can’t really remember what we did the rest of Saturday honestly… I think we just kind of relaxed around the house and watched Stranger Things. Saturday night we made delicious homemade pizza!

Sunday… was another sleep-in day and then lazing around the house all morning. Eric played his game and I read my book. Around 11 we finally got ourselves together and headed out for a walk. We were hoping to do a loop on the local trail system, but it was full of snow and ice from our big snow storm last week so our walk was cut short. It was still a beautiful morning though.

Sunday afternoon I went to my little cousins birthday party and then over to my mom’s house to make my Halloween costume…

It was a total hit at work yesterday, I even won best female costume 🙂

Sunday evening, Eric made us homemade pho for dinner which was delicious! We watched more Stranger Things and went to bed early. I managed to watch all of Season 1 (Eric had already watched it) and Season 2 of Stranger Things from last Wednesday to Monday, so clearly watching that show dominated a lot of our time recently!

And that sums up our potentially last weekend together just the two of us. Pretty laid back and low key, which was honestly perfect. We just hung around the house and relaxed lot and ate yummy food. It was really nice. I am super tired these days and Eric is also pretty tired on his days off from his intense work schedule, so we will take the lower key days!

How was your weekend? What did you get up to? 

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Reflections on pregnancy as we near the end

You can feel more than one emotion all at once and right now I feel uncomfortable and grateful at the same time. I feel ready for pregnancy to be over and not ready for it to end all at once. I feel so unbelievably lucky to have had this incredible experience of growing a human in my body and ready to no longer have a human in my body all at the same time.

For almost two years we tried to get pregnant. We talked to doctors and specialists all over Western Canada. I connected with other women battling infertility on social media. I injected hormones into my body. For almost two years every time I saw a pregnant woman out and about or a pregnancy announcement on social media I felt like I’d been stabbed in the gut with a knife. I like having control over my body so when I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF) in January of 2016, it was devastating. I was basically being told my body had this thing wrong with it and there was nothing I could do about it.

Due to that experience, the underlying emotion throughout this entire pregnancy has been gratefulness. When I couldn’t stop puking over the Easter weekend I still felt grateful. When I felt nauseous all day, every day for 6 weeks straight I was grateful. When my back would ache at the end of every single day, I was grateful. Right now, when it hurts to walk because of pelvic pain and I sometimes cry out in the night from the pain of rolling over or getting out of bed, I am grateful. So grateful. And I wouldn’t trade what I’m going through for anything. I am SO LUCKY to be pregnant right now and I will never ever forget that or let the negativity / bad side outweigh the good.

At the same time, being pregnant kind of sucks and most pregnant people will tell you that. Trust me, this was not something I wanted to hear when I was dealing with infertility so if you don’t want to hear this right now – or reading this makes you angry – I give you full permission to stop reading this post now. But just because I dealt with infertility, struggled to get pregnant and this baby in my belly is a little 1% miracle baby, doesn’t make the experience any less crappy and I can and am holding both emotions at once.

I definitely didn’t realize how uncomfortable I would be, how much I would hate the way my body looks in most photos (or that it would take 30 tries to get a bump photo I liked!) or how hormonal / emotional I would feel. Also, in general you just don’t ‘feel’ good or like yourself anymore, and that’s hard, especially for 40 weeks. I also really miss running.

There are a few things I truly will miss about being pregnant though, and here they are…

Feeling the baby move

I LOVE when the baby moves. Right from that first tiny flutter I felt at 18 weeks up to the big belly movements I feel now, every single movement has been amazing. I’ve been lucky to not really have any painful kick and I’ve never thought his/her kicks were annoying. They are just a lovely miraculous little feeling of a small babe in my belly. The best.

Eric bonding with my belly

I mean obviously seeing him bond / love on a baby is going to be 100% better but I’ve loved watching him love on his little babe before it’s even born. He talks to him/her, kisses him/her goodbye every day and also gets so much joy out of watching/feeling the movements. Again, this is something that just overwhelms my heart with gratefulness because we waited for it for so long and I didn’t know if it would ever be our turn.

Pregnant workouts during the second trimester

I already miss this since I’m now well beyond the second trimester, but I loved working out during that time period when my belly wasn’t too big and I wasn’t too uncomfortable yet. I felt totally bad ass for doing so many Fitness Blender HIIT and strength workouts and rocking my 10,000 steps a day for 3 months in a row while pregnant. It felt really really good to move my body and have such an active pregnancy. I am still moving regularly now at 36 weeks but that looks like yoga with A LOT of modifications, very short walks, and slow swims once a week. I’m still teaching a boot camp class 2x per week but not actively participating in the full class anymore. I mostly stick to things like lunges, squats and upper body strength moves.

Anticipating whether the baby is a ‘he’ or a ‘she’

I am SO glad we didn’t find out the sex of Baby H. It has made these last few weeks so much more fun! It’s fun to imagine having both a son AND a daughter. It’s fun to brainstorm names for both. I am feeling really excited to find out, but also not ‘dying to know’ yet either if that makes sense. I will know when we know. I cannot wait to have Eric be the one to announce it to me in the delivery room though 🙂 <3 If we are ever lucky enough to get pregnant again I would consider finding out the sex of the baby, just to experience both sides of the coin. But I’m definitely very glad we did not find out for this first babe.

Well, that turned into a bit of a monster post 🙂 So I will leave it at that!

If you are pregnant or have been pregnant before what did you like about it and will miss and what was your least favourite thing about it?

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Birthday Weekend Recap

Thank you all for your kind comments on my birthday post! I love reading back through those yearly reviews every year, I actually prefer them to January reviews!

Anyways, I had a great birthday weekend so I thought I would do a recap.

Saturday morning (my actual birthday) I got up and had some coffee while reading my book and enjoying a piece of toast. At 9:30 my friend Janine picked me up to go to yoga. One of the local yoga studios has a Saturday morning deal where if you go to the 75-minute flow class you get a coupon to have 1/2 price brunch at the restaurant across the street! I decided that would be a fabulous way to celebrate my birthday with friends and was so grateful to have so many people come out. We got our sweat on at yoga and then enjoyed a delicious brunch. I wish I’d taken a photo of my meal because it was sooooo good, but alas I forgot.

Eric took the day off work (at my request) so we could spend it together. We get so little time together I really just wanted to hang out with him. When I got home from yoga he had the table all set up with some birthday surprises 😉 What a goof ball.

The cereal is a bit of an inside joke from the first trimester of my pregnancy when I was so sick and ate a lot of cereal, and also just a few nights before we were talking about how much we were craving cereal but didn’t have any. Clearly that will not be a problem in our home for awhile.

I loved the flowers. He even asked her to add a pink rose (the first flower he ever brought me for our very first date on Valentine’s Day in 2005) and a sunflower for our wedding flower. What a guy <3 <3

I had a shower and got dressed and we headed out for some shopping. There was a block party happening in conjunction with the Farmer’s Market so we picked up pumpkin spice lattes and wandered through that.

I bought myself a little birthday present. This is from a local small business and I have been eyeing up their jewelry sets for quite some time!

After we were done wandering the block party and perusing the Farmer’s Market we headed to the movie theatre to catch an afternoon matinee. I wasn’t super interested in anything that was playing but the movie that looked the best to me was Wind River so that is what I chose. Oh my gosh I’m so glad I did, I really really enjoyed this movie and highly recommend it! It was very well done and tackled some relevant social issues about missing and murdered Indigenous women.

After the movie we went to the book store. I sure do love browsing the bookstore. There are so many GREAT new releases out this fall that I want to read and some of them are not available at my library yet so I was very tempted to spend all the money.

I resisted and only bought one that was on sale and had been on my to read list for a long time. Really looking forward to getting into this one.

We headed home and I read my book for a bit before getting changed to go for dinner. I chose Spicy Fusion, our local Indian restaurant, for my birthday dinner and it did not disappoint!

Soooooo good.

It was fun doing my makeup a bit nicer and getting a bit dressed up. I used to do that all the time at my old job, but I don’t really do it anymore. I admit I am not feeling at ‘my best’ with being pregnant (pregnancy weight gain is tough ya’ll!) so it was fun to get a bit more dressed up and feel pretty.

31 weeks at 29 years old!

Sooo thankful and appreciative for a wonderful day with this guy <3 After we got home from dinner I had a lovely candlelit bath and then we laid on the couch and watched Big Brother.

On Sunday Eric was back to work and after a day of indulgent food and not much movement on Saturday I woke up wanting to MOVE my body on Sunday morning! So immediately after getting up I loaded Chloe in the car and headed to our local trail network for a walk / hike. We did a 50-minute hike while listening to a podcast and it was seriously lovely.

I had to take more rests than normal on the steeper hills but overall this preggo did pretty good if I do say so myself.

My sister-in-law and nieces came over for coffee and a visit once I got home from the hike and then I spent the rest of Sunday doing things around the house. Hauling in some stuff from our garage, doing laundry, purging… general nesting stuff. It has felt really good to cross some big home to-do’s off the list.

Sunday evening my aunt hosted a birthday dinner for all the September babies (my cousin, my uncle and me). We ate fresh crab and salmon they had caught on their recent fishing trip to the ocean. It was soooooo good.

And I got to request dessert! I requested peanut butter cheesecake, also sooooo good.

I was definitely sufficiently stuffed after that amazing meal! Huge thanks to my aunt and uncle for hosting everyone. Next time I need to be better about getting a group photo.

And after all of that I was in bed by 8:00pm on Sunday night 🙂 So yes, overall a pretty perfect birthday weekend. Time with friends, family and my lovely husband but also a bit of alone / quiet time thrown in. Can’t believe this was my last birthday without a little sidekick. 30 is going to look veryyyyy different, isn’t it?! This year already looked super different from last year when we had a very active hiking / camping weekend. I feel pretty good about how much activity I’ve continued to fit in while pregnant, but I definitely don’t think I would have been able to handle all that hiking at 31 weeks 🙂

How did you celebrate your last birthday? And, if you remember, how did you celebrate your 29th birthday? 

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