I spent 75-minutes practicing yoga in a new-to-me yoga studio in my hometown a few days ago. It was a beautiful flow practice and there were only three of us in the class. At the end of 75-minutes I felt like I could practice yoga forever – I’ve had that feeling when running before but never when doing yoga and it was the most incredible feeling. I felt so light. I was in a sun spot and had a perfect view of the hills and bright, white snow outside. I felt so utterly peaceful and more in tune with myself than I have in a while.
I haven’t been able to bring myself to write a review of 2012 or goals for 2013 post this year. The word that defines 2012 for me would probably be “tired”. How awful is that? I had what should have been – and in a lot of ways has been – my best year ever (started an amazing new job, ran a marathon and got married and had the most fulfilling and fun fall at work among other things) and the first word that comes to mind when describing my year is ‘tired’. To say I feel ungrateful for typing that sentence is an understatement. But it’s the truth. And even after having the past 9 days off work, I still feel tired. I still feel beat down, I still don’t feel like myself. Except for the other day in yoga, when I was flowing and breathing and staring outside at the bright sun and white snow and felt so alive and at peace.
I don’t know about goals for 2013 as a whole, but I have some goals for the next week. I want to refocus my outlook and my life. I want to get into an organized routine that feels attainable without completely exhausting me and burning me out. I want to feel at peace and content again like I did almost exactly one year ago today when I wrote about yoga changing my life.
I am going to take one more week off from this blog to focus on starting back at work on Wednesday after my holidays as well as rebalancing myself for the New Year. It truly is the perfect time for a fresh start. This weekend I’m going to prepare some oatmeal and soup for breakfast and lunches, meal plan and hopefully pre-write some blog posts to get myself back into a groove.
So I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and have a very Happy New Year. Here’s to 2013 and all it will bring!