- I said “Goodbye, for now” to a good friend this morning. It was hard. She’s going a lonnngg ways away.
- I’ve been feeling really sad, burnt-out and lonely lately. A lot of stuff has been happening in my personal life and my regular life has still been chugging along full-force. I normally start to feel like this after I haven’t gotten home for a couple of months. Luckily, my mom is coming this weekend. I’m really excited to see her.
- I’m trying hard to power through my research paper that’s due tomorrow. I haven’t had much motivation to work on it lately but I know I just need to get it done. Then I’ll be done, done, DONE! A few of you asked when my cap & gown ceremony is – that’s not until June 3!
- I’m starting a Hot Yoga challenge tomorrow (more on that in tomorrow’s post). Maybe that will snap me out of my funk?
- We leave for Europe in 11 sleeps. 11 sleeps! I don’t feel ready and to be honest thinking about it makes me feel a little stressed. I know I shouldn’t feel stressed thinking about my fabulous European vacation but I do.
- I may or may not have started crying while writing this blog post. OK, I totally did. I’ve just been going-going-going for the last week or so and saying goodbye to Danielle kind of pushed me over the edge.
- I miss you, Newf. XO (PS: We call her Newf because she’s from Newfoundland – but I’m sure you all figured that out, right?
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- PPS: I really dislike how red my face always is (stupid redhead skin tone) how can I fix this?
I’m Asian but my skin always has that pink/red flushed tone to i t- usually blotchy. I suspect I have rosacea.
Saying goodbye to friends is never easy. I hope you guys will still stay in touch!
Aww dont be stressed out. You are about to graduate from college!! You are about to go on an awesome trip with your awesome boyfriend. I think once you turn that paper in and walk out of the room, you are going to feel like a million bucks
My last semester was by far the hardest of my college career. I was stressed and studying all the time. When I went in to take my very last final, a few of us decided we need to unwind. So what did we do? What any college student about to graduate in two days would do: get drunk during happy hour! haha Needless to say I havent done shots of liquor since
Can’t even blame this on Canandian geography- I so didn’t get the nickname haha.
I’m sorry you have been feeling like this lately and that you are feeling stressed about Europe. If it makes you feel any better I had like a minor middle of a night panic attack about my honeymoon like a month ago (aka like 4 months before the actual trip!). Traveling is fun but it’s also stressful. Once you are there I think you are going to feel a LOT better about it. Though I am going to suffer major Amber’s blog withdrawl!
(Yes I write multiple paragraph essays as comments lol). I am so excited to see how your hot yoga challenge goes since mine won’t start until May. I hope it goes well because if you can’t do it I’m going to be nervous about my ability to do it.
I’m sorry you are stressed. It is only natural. You have lots of changes going on in your life, love! Hang in there – it will get better. I promise.
It can be stressful getting everything organized for a massive trip. I’ve been in your shoes & know how it feels. Promise me this: when you step on the plane to leave, leave all the stress behind and allow yourself to get wrapped up in the excitement of your European Adventure. That is what I make myself do. I will allow myself to stress about all the little details, but when I get on the plane, I let it all go. Oh, and it helps to take advantage of the free drinks on international flights.
Good luck w/ that final paper. You are so so so close to being done. It is going to feel fantastic to hand that sucker in!
I’m sorry things are tough right now – and saying goodbye to friends really sucks. Thankfully there’s things like Skype and FB – you guys will still stay strong! Some of my best friends to this day are still people I left behind in England ten years ago
Good luck with the final paper, just push through it and finish with gusto. Its incredibly normal to be feeling the way you are. Changes that you’re going through are what push us into the people we become. Its never an easy process but in a few years you’ll look back on it and think “Wow” look at how far I’ve come. Its a never ending process.
So excited for you to be going to Europe so soon (and serves as a reminder to me that I owe you an email).
I’m sorry that you’re in a bit of a funk, but I hope yoga and your mom will snap you out of it. I can’t believe your trip is so close! I stressed about my cruise until the moment I was on the boat. Then it was allll relaxation!
It’s exciting to be finishing but good-byes are always hard! At least now you have an excuse to visit Newfoundland
I’m so excited for you!!!! I can’t wait to live vicariously through your trip through Europe. I want to go back sooo bad. Hopefully next year…
And big hugs, too.
I think everyone hates their own skin tone a great deal. I like your’s. You always have a nice rosy glow! I’m pale. Blah. I know “tanning” is bad for your skin, but when out in the sun?? My body gets color, but my face never does! Sometimes the nose. That’s all. :p
You have a lot going on in all aspects of your life so it’s totally okay to be stressed, sad, frustrated, feel the need to cry! Change doesn’t come easy and it comes with a lot of questions and confusion. Take your time. Remember that we all love you and you’ve got an amazing family & Eric (and Webster!) there for you as well.
You’re not alone in feeling stressed about traveling… I always stress about a trip, even if it is for only a few days!
Sending hugs & encouragement.
xoxo
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That is all.
Aw, I’m sorry you’re feeling blahh’ed and down. You’ve got a lot on your plate. Hopefully your mom’s visit will perk you up a bit, though!
And from another redhead, my face always looks crazy red in photos. I feel ya.
Even the most positive change (finishing school, Eric being back with you, etc.) is stressful. Take some time just for YOU and try to relax. You’ve got a lot on your plate, miss. Hang in there.
Awe. Saying goodbye to close friends is awful, but at least now you have a reason to make trips back East! I know Halifax is gorgeous, I’m sure many other places back there are as well!
Oh, and also? Your rosy cheeks are glorious!
Awwww, saying goodbye to a dear friend really is hard to do. It’s nice you were able to take a little road trip with her last weekend (congrats on the PR!). And you just have to remind yourself to be thankful for modern technology … I see many video chats in your future.
BTW, it’s clear you’ve got a lot on your plate, so you have every reason to be stressed. Why not write down a list of what you have to do between now and your trip versus what you normally do (Have to pack, shop for last minute items and finish up school work; usually watch TV, write blog posts and follow Twitter). Somewhere in that list of things you do everyday are things you can give up. Just temporarily. Things that will be there upon your return. Skipping over some of those things will free up some time, so you hopefully won’t feel so stressed about trying to get situated for your vacation!
Saying goodbye to a friend is always hard. I’m sorry you haven’t been feeling well lately! I’ve been really stressed out lately too, how come everything (personal & professional) always comes crashing down at the same time? What has helped me is getting organized with to-do lists and other lists, I really find that this clears my mind and helps me focus. Also, get lots of sleep! Everything seems better after rest!
Ugh, it is hard to say goodbye to College friends when your life starts taking you different directions
you’ll have SO MUCH FUN in Europe though, that’s such a great post-graduation trip to take!! Once you have a “real” job it’s too hard to get that kind of time off for yourself and traveling!! 
Aww, that sucks about your friend! I moved across the US a few years ago, and it sucks, but in the days of Facebook it’s not SO bad. Definitely could be a lot worse. Anyway, as a fellow red-cheeked freak I wanted to ask if you’ve ever tried the Eucerin Redness Relief line of skin products? I tried the facewash and didn’t really notice a difference, but maybe it’s worth a shot?
When I was younger (and still occasionally) my face got all red-toned, but it was really bad (and I don’t think it’s a red hair thing because I’m naturally dark brown) – I used to use green colour correction cream all the time.
I think yours is more a pinky-tone though – I think it’s nice!
Ahhh girl, I am sorry to hear that you have been feeling sad lately. You are really going to need, deserve, and enjoy your BIG TRIP!! You will feel SO good when you are done that paper, and DONE school!!! I am excited for you
Focus on your mom’s visit and Europe! You’ll be fine.
Awwww…..I’m sorry things are overwhelming right now. It’s okay to unload on the blog too.
You probably just needed to get it all out so I’m just going to be good and listen. And maybe tell you that I think your pink cheeks are tres adorable!
Oh miss, I’m so sorry that things are hard. You’re in my thoughts.
Awww…this post made me so sad for you. I TOTALLY know the feeling of being homesick. It’s TERRIBLE! Hang in there…things will get better soon.
*BIG HUG* I really hope that you start to feel better soon and get your mojo back. I know how hard it is to get everything you need to do done when you’re life’s going at full speed but you don’t have any motivation. Hopefully you’re mum coming here will help you to get some of that back. Mum’s are great like that!
By the way, how’s you’re dad? I hope he’s on the mend.
I really think your using every means possible to remind me how much I miss you and of course make me cry! haha If yesterday was any indication of how we’ll stay intouch across the country I know we’ll be fine. I love you and miss you lots already. x0x0
P.S- I can’t wait for your Europe trip! And also if you want a shorter flight feel free to stop over in Newfoundland. It’s probably about half way! haha
UGH! I HATE goodbyes! They always make me cry
Look at it this way: now y’all will have excuses to travel so you can see each other!
I Love your red hair! Its beautiful and i’m so jealous! Do you have photoshop or picassa? you can lighten it up on both programs but i think you look fabulous! sorry your friend moved away but just think now you have a place to visit!
Awwwww
So sorry that your friend had to move! I know very well how not fun that is… I mean the number of times I’ve moved and had to leave my good (great!) friends behind… 
At least now there’s skype and everything, but showing it on the map really shows how far away it is… 
As for the redness (which personally I think is adorable!) try Clinique’s anti-redness powder (can’t remember what it’s called). I tried it in Florida when I had the most gigantic/embarrassing sunburn and it actually worked and made me look more like a shrimp and less like a boiled lobster!