A little rant about school

This week is insane for me. I’m trying to get caught up on all my stuff that is happening NEXT WEEK also because my Dad, brother and Eric are going to be here this weekend and it will be a weekend full of moving!

Earlier today I marked “All as Read” in my Google Reader and thought, I think I’m going to step back from blogging for the rest of the week. I need to focus on school/work/running/packing etc. But, here I am, at 10:18 PM on Tuesday night writing a blog post when there are a million other things I should be working on.

Can I just add that 10:18 is late for me. I try to be in bed by 10:00 PM by the latest. But, here I am. And I have my alarm set for 5:00 AM tomorrow. Staying up late and getting up early is not ideal and definitely not something I could sustain long-term but it’s basically what I have to do to get everything done right now. I literally have to tell myself “4 weeks, 4 weeks, 4 weeks” over and over again throughout the week or I feel like I might have a nervous breakdown.

I don’t want to get too much into it until my degree is safely in my hand; but, basically, I hate my program. It’s not challenging, it’s not fun, it’s not teaching me anything. Every single day I go to school and hate my life because there are so many other (better) things I could be doing with my time. I enjoy my Public Relations and Marketing Communications classes but even they don’t challenge me the way I want to be challenged. As for my other classes, well to put it bluntly they really, really suck. I honestly wouldn’t recommend this program to anyone. And that makes me sad because it’s something I’ve wanted to do for as long as I can remember.

And I’m not the only one that feels this way, a lot of my classmates also feel the exact same way and like we are basically throwing money away. Oh well, at least we get a nice, pretty piece of paper at the end right? I mean, it’s only worth about $30,000. No big deal.

OK, that’s my random little un-planned, un-thought out rant for the month. I hate school. I can’t wait for it to be over.

Four weeks.

Your turn. What’s eating you this week? Rant to me in the comments? Also, is this just a case of senioritis? Did anyone else experience intense hatred (and I’m not using those words lightly) towards school in their last year?

PS: Happy St. Patty’s Day! Party-party?! ;)

33 Responses

  1. Jamie says:

    Awwww girl that sucks so bad! I am glad you got a little ranting done. As for your program… Maybe it’s a TRU thing because I really hated my program there too. It seems to be those special programs where everyone’s in the same classroom with set schedules and fewer professors. That’s what I found anyways. I HATED the program at TRU and wouldn’t reccomend anyone go there for that program. Sigh… Not too much longer!! By the way… Funny thing.. TRU called me the other night asking me for donations to their scholarships. I told them that I was currently a student at another school and they still asked me for a donation and that even $10 helps. Helloooo… I’m still a student… Scholarships are what I want haha not what I want to donate to.

    Anyways, good luck Amber!

  2. Deia says:

    Oh, I know exactly what you mean. I’m about half a year from finishing my studies and though I’ve enjoyed these last four years I’m glad they’re coming to an end.

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you. Good luck!

  3. Becky says:

    Hang in there! You’re so close! Right now my rant is about how I really don’t want to go to work because I know today will be slow and why can’t I just cuddle back in bed with the mister?

  4. Sarah says:

    Yes. I totally, absolutely could not wait to graduate in my last year of school. In fact, I had made a decision that if it so happened that I didn’t end up graduating for whatever reason, I would not be returning in the next semester to finish up (obviously, I’m sure I would have reconsidered that decision had it been necessary – I did graduate so the point is moot). But the main point is, I hated it SOOO much that I was seriously considering throwing away the 4 prior years effort just to have a break….

    Just think. It’s almost over! And then you’ll have your piece of paper and it will all be worth it!

  5. Emily Jane says:

    Stay focused, miss, the end is in sight!! And we’ll still be here even if you do need to rant once in a while. I sure do sometimes, haha!

  6. erin says:

    really — i had a bad bad bad case of senioritis my senior year of college. I couldn’t wait to get out. I was bored, I was annoyed wiht my classes. it was just ugh i hate this major! but the funny thing is it was also what i’ve wanted to do forever.

    the degree is worth that money because it puts your foot in doors — without a degree, you usually can’t get a job at certain places. I know where i work now (as much as i complain about it) you have to have a degree. and pretty much everything i do at my job, i learned on the job. i mean really!

    4 more weeks!!!!!!

  7. mandy says:

    I would venture to say its most definitely senioritis. I had very similar feelings the last half of my last semester. Mentally I was “done” with everything. I hope the next four weeks fly by for you and you can get on to the next chapter.

  8. Hannah Katy says:

    You are not alone love. That is for certain. I also have a case of senioritis (yes I am diagnosing you with it officially after reading this post ha) but just think about how good it will feel to be finished… It is not that far off. Hold your head up and good luck in the week ahead.

    Best,

    Hannah Katy

  9. Holly says:

    I started the count down to graduation during my first year. Of a four year program. Intense hatred? You better believe it! I hope the final 4 weeks go by really fast for you!!!

  10. Kelly says:

    Currently I am annoyed because #1- I couldn’t fall asleep last night and #2 I want to call my wedding dress place to see if my dress is in but my internet has blocked it because it is a site with “swimwear and intimate aparrel!” I hope it’s not swimwear. I hate that my work has the same restrictions for high school kids as it does for me. I should be able to look at what I want if I am at work early before the kids. I am an adult, not 16. Thank you.

    About your program I definitely hear you. I was not at a point of intense hatred but I was seriously ready to be done with school. My education program was fine. Not amazing but fine. Like most things I was better prepared actually being at my internships than in classes, but it worked. However, we had to double major and I did Communications. It was a TOTAL waste of time, and it annoyed me that I couldn’t take more classes I was interested in (I had no electives at all) rather than waste my time in pointless classes. I can only imagine that people who were Comm majors only had to have great internships because the classes did not prepare me to go into advertising, pr etc. A lot of people at my school did a 5th year masters program but I was like NOPE get me out, I really wanted to teach first so that my masters would actually mean something within the context of my classroom. It ended up being the best decision I ever made. My masters was so much more useful because I was teaching already. I still think school will always have some element of “pointless” for me…but that made it more useful. 4 more weeks, you can do it!!!!
    (PS. It’s absurd how much school costs. You are basically just paying to say you did it, which of course- is useful when finding a job haha)

  11. It’s ok – I hated my program, too (and it cost $25k a YEAR!) and by my last year I was seething over the stupidity. No one taught us at all; I basically taught myself, which is sad considering how expensive my tuition was. BUT – now that it’s over and I have the degree I get to do what I wanted to do anyway, and school’s all in the past. So it’s all downhill from here for you! :)

  12. I understand the senioritis kicking it… it gets to the best of us!

    And Google Reader sometimes takes over my life. Usually I’m ok with that… ;)

  13. Nora says:

    Well, based on what I know about your program vs my program, they were structured differently so I was a dork and enjoyed classes up to the last minute but the assignments? ICK. I was tired of having to go to class, turn things in, write essays, buy blue books and acted like I cared because I was graduating!

    You reach that point, which I think is a healthy point because you know you are ready to get to the next, big thing, that you are mature and ready for it. All good things.

    I won’t be all cheerleader-y and tell you can do it cause that’s annoying to hear when you’re in this kind of mood.

    But I will send you hugs cause that fixes everything.

  14. Yeah sometimes school just sucks and you’ve gotta do it for the degree. Just get it done and you’ll be SO happy you did and then you can move on to do what you want.

    I’m sorry though, I know how frustrating it can be. Just hang in there and focus on one thing at a time so you don’t get too overwhelmed. :)

  15. Kara says:

    During the last couple months when I was finishing classes, I wanted to commit murder. It was stressful and I couldn’t wait for it to be done. I wouldn’t say I hated the program, but I do feel like it could offer more. Apparently it will be next year? At least that’s what a little birdy told me in the department.

    The only thing that’s eating me this week is that I haven’t heard back from the job interview last week. The anticipating is killing me! And I’m getting all excited for me & Kyle’s trip to Vancouver this weekend. Yay!

  16. Leah says:

    Get that paper in your hand missy then walk away laughing. SO CLOSE!

    I don’t want to talk about what is frustrating me because it’s really private I do want to get this out in the universe. ….

    S:DKASLDJALKSUDQW&U$*&QW$*@*#$*@#*$*@#*$@#*$*@#$*@#*$JSDNASNDNASNDSAE@#$@!ps)qwe(!@(*$@#h$.

    aauuggghhhh. URG.

    (thank you).

  17. liane says:

    My rant is that I just found out I have to start moving in 4 days (as opposed to 2 weeks) and I’ve packed exactly 5 boxes. And yet, I’m procrastinating. Sigh.

    I can relate though to that last semester at school, I literally wanted to be anywhere but in class, I just wanted to get out!

    hang in there!!

  18. After my four years I had to do another full year to make up two classes (one because it was a remedial one credit class, and one I dropped because I hated it). It would have been so much easier to get both classes out of the way the same semester but the class I NEEDED to take for graduation was filled by the time I was allowed to register. It was annoying, especially now as I STILL-after four years-can’t find a job in my field. Or any job for that matter. I’ve been unemployed since November and I’m seriously going nuts.

  19. BostonRunner says:

    I’m hating on the fact that I have a midterm in 40 minutes and another one tomorrow morning and it’s absolutely gorgeous outside and everyone is either out enjoying the sun or celebrating st. patty’s day (or both). Gah!
    Hang in there though! Four weeks will fly by! I’m not looking forward to the senioritis, except I kind of hate school now and I’m not even there yet.. sigh..

  20. Jess says:

    Oh man my last semester of college I panicked because I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I mean I had a general idea of what I wanted and knew a lot about what I didn’t want, but don’t worry. Your senioritis will pass I promise!!!

  21. Nikki says:

    Ooooh ranting! My #1 rant right now is the idiotic waste company that dropped off a dumpster next door where they’re remodeling the house and stupidly cut my cable line. That was Monday during the day sometime. I have no TV and no internet currently (as of this morning) and the cable company only promises that it’ll be fixed by Saturday. So I have no TV/internet all week because this company is stupid and ran their dumpster into my cable line. (This goes along with my comment on your TV post! I only watch How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang Theory, The Biggest Loser and the Office but I can’t watch a damn thing right now! Even online! ARGHHH!)

    My #2 rant would be blisters. And the fact that I went to the store after work to buy band-aid blister relief band-aids last night and when I got home, I realized the box I got (which was the only one left) had only 1 in it. Someone stole the rest. So I couldn’t even use that one because I needed to return it!

    Whew. OK now I feel better. Hope you do too! I remember the last few weeks…heavy senioritis!

  22. My senior year of school, I had a different case of senioritis. I began to HATE all the girls in my sorority. And I was living in my sorority house, so I couldn’t get away. It was awful. I was so over THAT life and so ready for my new, GROWN UP life, it couldn’t come fast enough.

    Hang in there. If you don’t love your classes, enjoy this time with your classmates before you all scatter after graduation!

  23. Uggg, sorry to hear it. Sometimes, towards the end of something, we are ready for it to be over and to move onto the next “thing” in life. Hang in there!!!!

  24. eemusings says:

    Hell yeah, I couldn’t wait to be done with it all. Burnout.

    How long have you been feeling like this? Thank gosh you’re nearly done. And if you’re going to be paying 30k for it, you better damn well be getting the piece of paper at the end of it :P

  25. shoshanah says:

    I never felt that intense hatred in college, but in grad school? I think I felt that intense hatred for 1.5 of the 2 years I spent getting my Masters.

  26. Nicole says:

    Good luck moving this weekend!!! :) Enjoy seeing the man and yo daddy too! :)

  27. Yes, I absolutely experienced INTENSE hatred. It was last semester. I had been in school every semester since I was 17, and last semester I turned 27, and was SO done. I am ecstatic to have this semester off for the first time. I hated life a few months ago.

  28. I definitely felt the same way about school by the time I finished. I think most of it is senioritis. Push through it. It is frustrating to feel like you chose the wrong program, but all that matters at the end of the day is that fact that you finished college. What you majored in is pretty irrelevant for the most part… so hang in there.

    And yah, my blog has been all about ranting this week. I am just exhausted. I worked until midnight last night (was up at 5, and worked over 16 hours… not fun). Then when I went to bed at midnight, I couldn’t fall asleep because I had a pot of coffee at 8 pm to help me stay awake until midnight. Last time i looked at the close, it was 1:30 and i was up at 5:30. I am exhausted right now and just want to crawl back into bed and cry, to be quiet honest. But i have to push ahead… I have a big project at work that should wrap up in April so I am hoping things return to a more reasonable level by May or June…

  29. Paula says:

    Not long to go now! :)

    My rant – a woman in my department put in a complaint about me last week. I spent nearly a week worrying about this petty complaint going on my HR record when it wasn’t even complaint-worthy, had to put up with a “friend” (who had clearly encouraged her to do it for who knows what reason) remove me as a friend on Facebook (childish much?) and have felt thoroughly victimised. Now it’s not even being pursued but the woman has caused so much of an atmosphere by doing this. I’m livid!

    Apologies for using YOUR comment space to rant but i’ve not really been able to talk about it on my blog.

  30. Some/most of my major classes were a waste of my time. I still don’t feel like I was ever taught how to do some specific functions of teaching that I would have loved to have been modeled shown. I really felt like I had some informatino and the skills I had before hand and the ability to write a lesson plan and that was it. But now, I do what I do and rarely use what I learned in college to do it. I learned some good things and good strategies but haven’t been in exact situations to use what I know yet. This week I am insanely busy trying to test all of my kids before conferences next week and dealing with parent helpers bailing, kids being out sick and the time crunch of how can I get it all in? With meetings and planning for my reading groups and my computer classes and yeah I never have a free minute. I am most likely going to have to do report cards over the weekend.

  31. sophia says:

    Oh man. I would seriously be bitching if I were you, too. I mean, money isn’t the only matter…but wasting time is a HUGE issue for me. Is there any way you can do something on the side, to make you feel more productive? Perhaps an internship, or you can do your own deeper research using the info that you’re getting from this program?

  32. Stephany says:

    I can totally feel you. I felt this way last semester when my classes just bored me. There was no challenging work, no fun assignments, no exciting interviews. Very mundane. This semester? I’m doing more than I ever thought I was capable of. It feels great! I have two professors who demand a LOT out of us and while I hate all the homework I have, I love the challenge.

  33. Anais says:

    That sucks :( Sometimes I hate my program too… Not necessarily the Masters but the law one from before…

    I’m also super busy right now and I think sometimes, you DO need to take a step back from blogging! Since that week is (now) over, I hope you’re doing a bit better this week!!! :)