Disclaimer: This post will probably come off as whiny and complainy. I’m sorry for that because that’s not the kind of person I like to be, but I’ve had a lot of crap going on lately and want to get it off my chest. In order to not tarnish your image of me stop reading now if you hate whiny/complainy posts.
Those of you following me on facebook or twitter probably figured out that I wasn’t having the best day yesterday. Here’s a few things that are bothering me right now:
- Their calling for snow. I know it’s not here yet, but it just irks me that there calling for it. Seriously Mother Nature, f*ck off already.
- I can’t lose the last 10 pounds. I don’t know why it’s so hard. I eat pretty good, I’m working out more than ever, yet the last 10 pounds won’t budge. I know I’m getting stronger, I can do more pushups than ever before (thank you Jillian Michaels). But I still weigh 10 pounds more than I want to weigh. Short of starving myself, I don’t know what to do.
- I had a phone interview for an internship I REALLY wanted last week. He said he’d definitely call back Friday whether I got the job or not. He didn’t call until yesterday, I didn’t get it.
- The kicker of them all: Eric got accepted into welding school awhile back. We were both VERY excited about this because it’s a competitive program. He contacted his advisor right away and she told him his sponsorship letter that is covering his courses right now would still be good for welding school, so he doesn’t have to put down the $500 deposit. She confirmed, in an email, that everything was set.
Yesterday, he finds out he lost his spot because he never contacted the trades administrator herself, so she assumed he didn’t want the spot. Apparently the sponsorship letter was in the finance department and so she didn’t see it. Now he’s fighting tooth and nail to get his spot back because the advisor never should have told him everything was good to go. There’s a very good possibility he will lose his spot, which will mean moving home, which will mean I will be stuck down here by myself.
- I could move home with him for the summer, except I just turned down my very highly paid summer job on Friday. Plus, we JUST sent in six more months worth of cheques for our apartment in Kamloops, assuming we’d be here through the summer. I honestly feel like since moving to Kamloops NOTHING has gone right for us. There was Eric being unable to find a job, the car accident and now this.
- Coronary artery disease runs in my family, on both my moms and dads side. The more I think about all the above things the more I feel like I’m going to throw up from the stress, which means the more plaque is building up on my arteries increasing my chances of having a heart attack at an early age. Great.
OK. *Deep breath*
Please don’t let me be the only whiny/complainy one out there, let’s sound off in the comments.
What’s bothering you RIGHT NOW?
PS: I promise cheery/happy Amber will be back tomorrow. XO
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all i can say. take it one day at a time! last summer was one of those summers for me and boyfriend, we just kept getting slammed with all things financially. it definitely affected our relationship, but we got through it. You'll get through this. could you possibly sublet your place? I'd say contact the highly paid job that you just turned down and tell them that things went in a different direction & you'd be more than happy to work for them. couldn't hurt!
girlll everyone needs to get everything out once in a while… You feel a little better, right? Things will get better, just try and find the positive
good luck!
Breathe! Everything will be fine. I definitely have days like this, but seriously just step back from it all for a bit.
Oh Amber.
That sucks. Sorry to hear you are having such a bum day. When it rains, it pours… 
I hope that you find an internship & Eric gets his spot back in Welding school.
It's good to vent from time to time. Everyone has these days & it's better to acknowledge how you are feeling than to shove it all under a rug…
And don't worry about those last 10 pounds. You look wonderful - try not to think too much about the scale. You might be gaining muscle, which weighs more than fat, so that might be why those last 10 pounds are just not coming off.
Hang in there, my dear. I hope things start looking up for you!
i love you kiddo!
Sorry about your crummy day/week, I’m sure everything will work its self out, it usually does, might not be over night, but it will. Steve and I have had the same tough time this past year. I’m not a patient person so waiting things out just makes things that much more crazy…lol. The last couple of weeks we’ve had to take things one hour at a time. I seriously thought I was going to explode. Thank god Steve is a super patient person. I’m thinking the end of August 2010 will start to slow down for us LOL I don’t recommend buying a house, renovating, training and then planning a wedding all in the same year!!
I sure as hell wouldn’t give up on the whole Eric’s welding school situation, it was their fault, even if they have to have an extra person in the course they should let him in!!
Keep smiling, you look freakin amazing, and your not whining lol everyone has to vent every now and then, its healthy!!
Katrina
Sorry things are so stressful for you right now. You’re right about taking a nice deep breath! Things will work themselves out for you. Just take it one day at a time!
sorry you’re having such a sucky day. we all have those every once in a while, and the blog is the perfect place to vent those frustrations!
everything will work out in the long run. if the rent is paid, stay in camloops. other opportunities will always open up. sometimes you have to pry the door open, but it will always open. hang in there sis, luv ya!
Hang in there, it will get better…I promise.
Aww Amber. I’m sorry. I completely know how you feel. Sometimes it seems like nothing is going right. Stay strong and everything will work out.
I really wanted to lose weight by this weekend, and it’s almost here and I haven’t lost a single pound. AND I found out that I didn’t get accepted to the one graduate school I applied to (and now I am kicking myself for only applying to 1 school.)
Things will get better for both of us though, I have faith
This all sucks!!! You know what you need? You need to go do something which makes you feel good/happy (manicure? hiking?), I think you’d feel a bit better afterwards
Things that are bothering me right now…Work. I have no clue what I’ll be doing 1 month from now. Everyone else around me is so excited to be done with school, and I am scared sh*tless because I don’t know what I’ll be doing. I’ll have 2 law degrees, and no jobs. How sad is that?
About the weather, I am SO feeling you on this. I looked at the longterm forecast - rain. For 10 straight days. I don’t know if you heard, but last summer in Ottawa, we had rain almost every single day, even if it was just for 5 min. How depressing is that???????
And about the last 10 lbs, I wish I was there already lol
But it’s tough because you seem to be working out a lot and doing intervals, and eating well too!!! Maybe try getting a session with a personal trainer? Or do running intervals?
Anyways, I really hope things get better and that Eric will get his spot!
That really sucks! I hope things get better soon.
Hey, actually I had some idea about those last 10 lbs!
On Self right now, they’re doing the Self Challenge, and you can log in all your food information and stuff. If you’re not already doing it, I think you should, for like 2 weeks to see exactly how much you’re eating.
Then, I would go on those websites (like FoodPyramid.gov) where you can log in your information and it tells you how much you should eat/burn to stay at the same weight or lose and see what they say.
I would also give your food log to a friend who won’t be afraid to be honest, and have her tell you what you could change. Sometimes, we’re so used to our habits that we might overlook things
Hope it helped and sorry for the 2 long comments lol!
Don’t worry about letting it all out…it’s your blog, so you are allowed to say what you need!!!
I wish i could give advice…but I don’t know what to say!!! I seriously hope that something good comes along SOON to cheer everything up!!! Is there any way that you can call your high paying job and tell them that you might be able to work if other things don’t work out??? And you should also be able to ask for your cheques back!!
The great part is you both have each other to get through it
I’m bugged by a lot of things right now…my job is slowly breaking me down (no challenges), but I have to stay positive. Thanks for all the kind notes~!
I’m so sorry to hear things have not been going well lately. and never worry about feeling whiny or complainy because that’s what blog friends are for!
to listen and hopefully cheer you up.
I hope things turn around soon but if they don’t, just try to stay positive and know that EVENTUALLY things WILL GET BETTER!! and also know that some things, to a certain extent, are simply out of your control, like the snow for example! or even getting the job you really wanted. so try not to stress too much over things you cannot change. however, I am glad to hear Eric is fighting tooth and nail because he didn’t deserve to have that spot taken away and hopefully, he can get it back.
finally, know that everyone has days/weeks/months like this, you are not alone! I know I have had my moments where it seems like the world is against me, but eventually my luck would change. luckily, you have friends, family and Eric to support you and get you through. maybe if you focus on that you will be able to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.
sending you good thoughts today!
Off-topic, the title of my your blog is so funny.
I’m always complaining, so i totally get it. But you kind of need to pick your battles. Like the fact that artery disease runs in your family. There’s not a lot you can do there except what you are already doing. (Although if I were you, I would have listed it too!) And things will get better, they always do…
I’m sorry Amber. I’ve got a lot of crap going on too.
Awwww, see you had lots of good friends who wrote in & cheered you up. I am glad things sorted themselves out! That is the funny thing about life–things do you usually sort themselves out, but it is our first instinct to freak out.
If your blog isn’t a place to rant then what is?
I’m glad to hear things are looking better already? Isn’t that the way it usually works?
PS I’m always keen for guest posts if you need someone? I’ve had a few people guest post for me while on vacay so I should totally return the favour!