Thanks for all the great book suggestions yesterday. We need to talk more about a blogging book-club!
OK, so I was reading Storked! Yesterday and Chrissy was talking about looking back on an old journal entry and then a blog entry and saw the difference in how she portrayed herself on her blog. It inspired me too share with you guys a few things from my old journals.
I’ve been keeping a journal consecutively since October 2000. I’ve filled out five journals in eight years and I’m currently on my sixth one now! I find as I get older, and especially since starting this blog, I have less time to write in my journal, but I try to get an entry in every couple of months.
I’ll admit that I am not as open on this blog as I am in my journal. There’s something about knowing that no one will be reading it that lets you say your deepest fears/insecurities and really lash out at people. I’ve got my fair share of journal entries where I was livid at Eric! I’d never post a horrible, ranting blog on here about Eric because I know I’m just mad and I’ll be over it in five minutes, but writing ‘WHAT A FUCKER’ in my journal does help a bit with the cooling down process. You know?
So below, I’ve included an excerpt from each of my journals that was around the same time as now. I hope you enjoy reading and this is verbatim so please excuse the bad grammar!
January, 29/2001
Hey! Snowboarding was awesome! I am sooo stiff now but snowboarding was sooo much fun! I loved it! Next time I’m gonna be way more daring! Tiffany switched to skis after her lesson she didn’t like it much! I don’t blame her though after my first time I switched to skis! But now I’m stickin with it! Well gotta go see ya! Love: Amber
January, 30/2002
…I do know that I like writing and I think my CAPP essay was one of the best pieces of writing I’ve done all year. You know whats really kinda funny. Our essays were on what career we wanted to pursue when we grow up. While after considering several different careers including, policewoman, stunt double, join army or navy. I chose the same one I did a speech on last year and enjoyed researching it immensely. Journalism. I want to be a journalist! ~Amber
*Seven years later I’m in journalism school
January, 20/2003
OMG! I had the most amazing weekend. Our team played pretty good in the tourney. We still lost all our games but we played good. On Friday I got a new glove, new goalie pants, and new goalie skates. But me and my dad have to take my skates back tomorrow cuz they bother my feet.
January, 10/2005
Oh and on a closing note, not too sound like a 13-year-old girl or anything. But my “little” crush on ERIC has been expanding into a ginormously huge one :S I like him sooo much! I dunno it’s weird. And I can’t tell if he likes me at all, and I’m scared to death to even hint at how I feel because I don’t want to scare him away and lose a friend. So other then daydreaming about us being together I haven’t taken any action on the subject. But I’ll keep you updated!!!
*Four years later we’re still together.
January, 26/2006
I’m sitting at my desk doing Biology homework, not conecentrating at all. Instead I’m thinking about how me and a bunch of my friends are going to Worsley to go snowboarding this weekend. And I remembered when I was little and every Sunday me and my dad would go to Worsley and go skiing. Usually just the two of us, cuz my brother was too little to go. And on the way there my dad would quiz me on my times tables until I could answer them at the snap of a finger…Theres moments (like tonight) when I wish I could be that little girl again. She never had any problems or worries. She never cried herself to sleep over a boy.
*I just teared up typing this (this is when Eric and I were broken up).
OK, well that’s it for today. I hope you guy’s enjoyed reading those and they weren’t too boring. I’ll have too post more excerpts in the future!
So, tell me. Do you have old journals from when you were a kid? Do you keep a journal now? And do you feel like you can open yourself up more in your journal than on your blog?
Have a great weekend everybody!!
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yes i am definitely taking a day or two off even though i hate doing that. My brother is coming in town so hopefully my cold passes when he leaves Sunday…then back to work!
I used to write in my journals, and when i find them i love looking thruogh them to see how i was at that time. its so much fun to read them
love your entries
Awwww, this was so cute! I loved it.
I used to keep a written journal, but now I pretty much just blog.
that is cute.
I just found one of my angsty teengage journal and was “darn, I wasn’t very smart” lol! I don’t keep a journal anymore, but I have a pretty decent memory. And I do keep an “inspiration” journal that is a collection of thoughts, possible blog posts, research ideas, etc.
I always tried to keep a journal, but I could never stick with it for long. Which is why it is amazing that I am now doing a blog. But I guess I look at it different. I definitely am not as open as I would be if it were a journal, for my eyes only. Some people put it all out there, but I guess I can’t do that. At least not yet any way. But that is amazing that you have steadily kept a journal for so long. Kudos to you. It is nice to look back.
btw, thanks for your tips the other day. I wish I could be a disciplined as you when it comes to working out! I can barely get out of bed at 8 a.m., let alone 5:30
I know I just need to start and it will get easier… it’s the starting that is hard!
have a good weekend!
I have a journal from when I was a kid. Every time I read it, I crack up! I should start one up again. Thanks for the idea!
I really need to start keeping a journal. Blogging is great, but I am not quite as honest as I could/should be about how i am feeling. I do sometimes think about starting an anonymous blog, though…
So fascinating to read old journal entries, though. I need to find my ones from when I studied abroad & re-read those!
yea black team
we’re on the same 20sb biggest loser team 
I’m so glad you mentioned this! I haven’t really struggled yet w/ managing my personal life boundary to the blog, but it’s hard to know when to share and when to not. I wish I could keep a journal AND the blog-but I could never be that committed! KUDOS:)
I used to keep a journal. I wanted to pass it along to my children when I died. But…… someone read it, and not only did they read it, they brought things that they didn’t like to my face and got angry at me for writing the things I felt. I burned that journal and have never kept one since.
Keep your journals hon, keep writing. Don’t ever let anyone stop you from being the person that you are.